mind dumping

I, too, am furious over the cartoon in the New York Post. I wish there was a way to say that this issue will blow over, but I highly doubt it. Racism is a long-standing issue in this country and as long as there are even just a few to fuel that fire, it will always be there. Yes, we elected a black president, which shows a progressive move by many Americans, but that doesn't mean other folk are happy about it. The sad reality is thatPresident Obama is going to be at the root of a lot more attacks like this one.

I was in Target the other night and saw two different white mothers snapping on their kids. Why did that amuse me? I think it's because I'm so used to seeing white mothers be rather and overly passive in terms of disciplining their children in public; if at all. I'm chuckling just thinking about it.

So, how is it that I had a Rx for 4 pills cost $7.34 and a 30-day supply cost me $0? I'm not necessarily complaining because that means my refills won't cost a thing, but it's still rather odd to me.

I'm not into Valentine's Day one iota, but how is it that when a dear friend asked if I'd be his Valentine, I was tickled by it?!

Jealousy and contempt for/of another is a pretty ugly thing, but when it comes from your own sister, that's unconscienable. Worse part, I haven't done jack to deserve it.

I sent a birthday card to one of my cousins for her birthday last month and from her reaction, you'd have thought I sent her a winning lottery ticket. See, folk, it's the simple things. A real card over a txt says a whole lot.

Lil Lady is the funniest kid I've probably ever encountered. She was telling me a story about her dad and another about her dog and I almost threw up in my mouth from laughing so hard. I love that kid!

I thought I'd hate Facebook, but I actually like it and check it almost daily.

I just had my first trip on 2009 and it was great. Nothing like 75-80 degrees when it's 33 back at home. The hotel was absolutely gorgeous and thanks to the hook up from my fave cuz, I got it for a friggin steal. Check out Wyndham Garden Hotel, Boca Raton, FL

I'm looking forward to the day when we, as a community, will stand up for something and stand together.

I think; actually, I know that we need to better educate our children on sex, sexual assault/abuse, and sexual respect. I'm saddened by the amount of young women and some boys who have no idea what the whole sexual thing is really about. So much so that we're leading many of the numbers for sexual abuse/sex crimes/STDs.

Mr. Toolbelt seems to have finally got the message that I don't want anything to do with him.

I'm still torn with Grandy, but seeing him recently did remind me how much I actually have missed him and how much I enjoy his company. I wonder how I'll feel in a few more months and another lengthy absense. *sigh*

An old college friend whom I shared a mutual attraction is digging me again and I really don't know how to handle it. I like him, but am not sure how I want to proceed with it. Damn those conflicted feelings!

I'm not a pill-popper for sport, but after conceding and now being on meds on a daily basis, I actually do feel better and more in control. It pays to be honest with yourself and your doctor.

I think it's funny that when someone has a baby and you get ga-ga over it, they say, "don't you wish you had another one?" Uhm? No! I'm one and done for a reason!!!

Speaking of babies, the newest addition to the family, Jadin; is gorgeous. He's a lighter version of his daddy.

And still speaking of kids, my godson will be 2 next month and the twins (other godchildren) will be 3 in May. Damn, it went fast!

In conclusion of kids, mine will be 17 this year. Now, that went quick! I still easily recall many of her younger days fondly.

I really want to see my fave brother this year. I'm praying that he'll get to come to visit me from London. I want to go home too!

Steve has been behaving badly...again, but I seem to have him in check. Thank goodness for the relief I got. *wink*

I really need some new music for my iPod, but I've been too lazy to research and download some.

I'm worried about a friend of mine and think I will finally ask her about some things. How can I call myself a friend, if I don't express my concern?!

I've been remiss in cooking lately, but I think I'll make up for it this weekend. Yes, you can come if you bring some wine. *smile*

Aiight folk, my lunchbreak is over so I gotta go. Have an amazing and blessed day y'all.

Love to live; live to love!

Blu's Clues!

Have you ever looked at people and wondered how they're not getting it? You know; you give 'em that head tilt look like the RCA dog from back in the day and say in your head, "WTF? Are you really that dense?"

Well, here's a list of some signs that "Blu's really not into you..."

...I never cross the threshold of your cube when I engage in conversation with you

...I say things like, "it's easy for girls to be just friends with a guy"

...I, under a certain level of social duress, issue a hug where only my upper body is barely touching you and it's very brief

...have never complimented you on anything you've worn...ever!

...have called you out for needing to see your barber

...refuse to respond to your slick comments about my being "sexy, hot, etc..."

...laugh and say, "whatever" when you're trying to flirt with me

...have said repeatedly, "and you wonder why you're single?"

...have been considered "mean", though it's not really me being mean, I'm actually just being honest and you can't handle the truth

Well, that's all folks...no more to read here...have a great day!


Love to live; live to love!

Lyrically Speaking - Worrisome Heart, Melody Gardot

This was a free download on iTunes back in April 2008 and I instantly fell for the misty blue, jazzy, meloncholy lyrics, but never really paid deep attention to the lyrics...until today.

I don't have a link for you to hear it, but I'm sure you can locate it online. Here's the lyrics to it and they speak pretty loudly to how I'm feeling of late...

I need a hand with my worrisome heart
I need a hand with my worrisome heart
I would be lucky to find me a man
Who could love me the way that I am
With this here worrisome heart
I need a break from my troubling ways
I need a break from my troubling ways
I would be lucky to find me a man
Who could love me the way that I am
With all my troubling ways
I need a man who got no baggage to claim
I need a man who got no baggage to claim
I would be lucky to find me a man
Who could love me the way that I am
A worrisome troubling baggage free modern day dame,
Said a worrisome troubling baggage free modern day dame
Ain't no body the same

Left turn in Albuquerque

I "stole" that line from Bugs Bunny years ago and continue to use it because it makes some kind of perverse sense to me. I mean, who really goes to Albuquerque? And to have gotten there, you obviously had to have made a wrong turn right?! Well, I didn't bring you here to get a lesson in geography or my peculiar expressions; I'm simply feeling like I've made a wrong turn and am trying to get back on track.

I entered the dating world and while initially it seemed like something I would be able to do, I soon realized that I'd made a left turn in Albuquerque. I got off that road and then started back on my journey thinking that heading in another direction would yeild more favorable results. At first, I enjoyed the scenic route and thought that I was going in the right direction and then out of nowhere, here I encounter a detour and bam! I'm making yet another left turn; or at least it seems that way. I pull over on the Emotional Highway and sit at the Rest Area as I contemplate whether to continue on or make a u-turn and drive away as fast as I can.

While I'm sitting in the Rest Area, I start thinking about a love from my past and how I wished I'd had the courage and presense of mind to speak up and let him know how I felt because if I had, I might not be sitting in a Rest Area on Emotional Highway contemplating which way to go. I know we can never truly know what we would have done back then, but this is one of those occassions where I can be absolutely sure that had I; or even he, had been a little more forthcoming with our feelings I wouldn't even be writing this mess. I'd be happily married to a wonderful man who I loved and loved perfectly imperfect me in return.

Okay, so I know you're skeptical and I can't say I blame you, but I speak the truth. I absolutely know that with all my heart. How? Because I've spoken to him and every single feeling I had back then has resurfaced and then some. He's breathed new life into me and I feel like a child at Christmas because of him. Out of respect for him and his privacy, I won't divulge certain details, but the love I feel for him far outweighs any doubt that you may have. If you've ever loved with every fiber of your being, you'll know that you know what you know and trust your gut.

I'm not sure how long I'm going to be sitting in the Rest Area as I try to get my head and heart right/togetgher, but I'll stay for as long as it takes. There's a tow truck offering to pull me out of my rut and as nice as that is, I'm not sure that's the best course of action. I don't want to be on yet another detour or make another left turn. All I want is to be on the right road; heading in the right direction...is that really to much to ask for? Why can't I have it all dammit? I'm worth it!

Love to live; live to love!