Sanctuary

You came back into my life
And from day one
Effortlessly peeled away the layers
Until you reached my innermost sanctum
Taking up residency like a stubborn squatter
As if my soul was where you were supposed to be
© 2010



It's all possible!

First poem of 2010

I'm still working on it; or at least I think I am, but this is what I've got so far...

The complex composite of your being
Subsides into anticipation of my proximity
You yield open and willingly powerless to defeat
Lost in the sublime reverie of our moment
Freefalling into the blissful abyss
Where open arms welcome you with a first embrace
The softness of a familiar but yet still unknown
Sensation of this; our first kiss
Setting us free; now capable of submission
Having grown weary of the confine
Gentle brushstrokes applied in vivid colour
Manifestations of loves spectrum exposed


It's all possible!

Asylum

This is the final of the four poems I wrote last week.

I’m not quite crazy; more like that special kind of special
Where what seems insane is really normal; at least for me
It’s that place were the irrational makes sense
And I question not the absurdity of loving
With such wanton abandon that you do what you do
Freely; willingly because love just is
And I don’t really care what anyone else says
Cause as the proverbial saying goes
“If loving you is wrong, I don’t wanna be right”
Suffering the consequence of this emotional catastrophe
Where loving you is the strength of my weakness
And I solicit no means for a remedy
My heart tilts on its axis at the sound of your voice
Mouth dry from the unquenchable thirst kiss after kiss
My fingers marvel at the softness of your skin
I hear your silent words speak decibles beyond voice
And I delight like a child at Christmas when I see you
Your flaws are the perfect manifestation of your truth
The consistent inconsistency of your presence
Spends me; leaving me bankrupt
Yet still rich in the magnitude of love’s economy
One so fragile; yet so strong and intense
For my expenditure of life’s grandest feeling
So if loving you makes me crazy
Then I’ll gladly live in this asylum forever

© Blu Jewel
2 Oct 2009

Liberation

Okay Blog Fam, I guess it's safe to say that your girl is on a roll. This is in fact the 4th poem I've written this week. I'll get to posting the others soon enough, but there was some driving force behind this one and I had to share it with you.

Have a blessed stay folks and stay up.

Taking off my training wheels
And taking my first unsupported ride
I cruise into the elated feeling
The experience brings
Trusting in my willingness to let go
And be free; no long restrained
By the security of the firm
Instead leaning favorably toward
The possibility to falling and being helpless
And the enjoyable nefarious abandon it illicits
The equal fear and enthusiasm of stepping
Into the unknown is a risk well worth taking
If you really want to live

© Blu Jewel 2009

Love to live; live to love

As yet untitled - New poem

@ Chele, you didn't have to wait as long as you thought you might...Enjoy!

Like a river to the ocean, I’m drawn to you

Your call; a silent whisper within the wind

Caressing me into a gentle seduction

Making me weak where I stand…

Upon unfamiliar ground; virgin to this experience

However, still familiar to the pull of attraction

I let down my guard; submitting to

The leap of faith beneath me…

Cushioned for the break of my fall into heaven

Knowing you’re there to receive me

Open arms; open heart; committed to love

Me with every fiber of your being…

Honest and true; giving your all not half

Treating me like the Empress I am

Borne of your missing rib

Created to fill the void in your life…

With joy and laughter, tenderness and passion

Blu Jewel 2009

Love to live; live to love

What One Dance Can Do

I know; I know! I'm taking too long between posts. It's not intentional; trust me, but I've got something that will take your mind of my absense. Enjoy...

Conjoined like Siamese twins we move in one motion
Feeling the energy ignited by a rhythmic dance
Awakening the wave coursing through our bodies

Sexual arousal emits as topical penetration ensues
Thrusting us closer to the errant climb of desire
Lust; the effervescent high supplying the fuel

Intoxicated by the sweet elixir of our kiss
We submit to the passion created and act with abandon
Cementing the connection into a cosmic oral bliss

© Blu Jewel 2009

Love to live; Live to love

Fluid Motion

I thought I'd lost my mojo since Nikki's passing, but it seems I'm even more inspired. Maybe it was the recent full moon that gave way to an increased energy that could only have come from her. Like Nikki, I love the moon and always feel exhilarated by the lunar cycle and especially the full moon.

Here's something that I came up with this morning...

His attention; purposed and intentional; either by familiarity or memory; he made his way into her; third eye blind and was met with little resistance. The slight tension; released into a sigh as if the torture of the wait was over. Heat rose like steam through city grates; its intensity furious and yet delicately passionate as their bodies gelled into one form moving in a rhythmic pace.

Words; lost in an inaudible melody sounded like gibberish only they could understand; only they needed to understand. It was their way. It was how they communicated; silently through telling eyes; speaking a lover’s tale.

Their dance; a waltz leading to a quickened tango only to be suppressed into staggered pace reminiscent of a child’s game of musical chairs punctuated by anticipation. And like the calm before the storm, the motion smooth; erotic; and exhilarating gives way to a tempest; bodies colliding in a frantic motion. Arms, legs grasping; releasing and breaths like zephyrs cloud the room.

Minutes pass like labored hours as the seeming perpetuity of the union plays out. An escaped moan; the saturated kiss; the bitten flesh; the Neanderthal grunts and thrusts all colliding without contest. The climactic clarity of the journey now complete.

© Blu Jewel 2009

a lil something that came to me

When you pour your love inside my cup
I feel my well spring rise and swell
As it’s satiated from its desert state
And you’re no longer just an oasis
But the embodiment of natures wonder personified.

© Blujewel 2009

love to live; live to love!

Why love?

This piece found its way into my mind this morning...

Why am I so full of you
But you’re elusive to me
I use you in all I do for others
Yet the reciprocation vacates
Why do I believe in something
I can not see, but feel so deeply
Are you likened to the faith
I hold so near and dear
That keeps me going in spite of
Love, why do you treat me so
Filling me with hope and promise
Then leaving me with sadness and emptiness
I love not for loves sake
But for the fulfillment of a natural need
To give that which I feel for he
Who’ll become the counterpart of me
Why love are you mirage of my hearts desire?

© BluJewel 2008

I Want A Love...

Thanks to Don, I came across a wonderful poem that is a MUST read. I want that kind of... by Charles.

It reminded me of a poem I wrote some years ago. Because of Charles, I've decided to share it.

I want a Love

I want a...
I want a love...
I want a love that existed way before time and will last long after it has past
I want a love that you have to travel to the ends of the universe and back to understand its depth
I want a love that makes you envelop yourself in an ocean of water only to die and be reincarnated in a different country so that I could love you in a different language.

I want a …
I want a love...
I want a love that defies sense a logic and renders me helpless every time you’re near
I want a love that makes me full even if I haven't eaten because I am consumed by the mere sight of you
I want a love that fuels my fire so much that just thinking of you makes me hot
I want a love that makes me cry every time I go to sleep because I can't see you
I want a love that makes me just want because you make me insatiable

I want a …
I want a love...
I want a love that makes years feel like months, months feel like weeks, weeks feel like days, days feel like hours, hours feel like minutes, minutes feel like seconds so I would never feel like I'm away from you.
I want a love that turns syllables into words, words into sentences, sentences into paragraphs, so that no matter what I say, it sounds like I love you.
I want a love that has a foundation strong enough to hold the weight of the world and the universe that surrounds it.

I want a ...
I want a love...
I want a love that makes everyday a ceremony for the sound of your voice is music to my ears
I want a love that makes me feel like I'm in a garden for every time I thought of you flowers bloomed
I want a love where you were my compass and I would never be lost and always be lead back to you

I want a...
I want a love...
I want a love that allows my thoughts of you to became stars so on a clear night you could look up at the sky see how much I love.
I want a love that allows me to sleep through dark and dangerous nights because as long as I'm near I know I'm safe.
I want a love that allows oceans and seas to become puddles and ponds because you are on the other side.

I want a …
I want a love...
I want a love where being incarcerated would seem like freedom knowing you're still there for me
I want a love where being naked is just a state of being because I'll always be covered with your love
I want a love that welcomes the darkness for that's when the stars shine the brightest and I know your love is above me
I want a love that allows us to speak volumes even when we're not talking

I want a...
I want a love...
I want a love that would allow me to change the promise that the rainbow made and instead of a pot of gold I would find you.
I want a love so beautiful that every paradise in the world wishes that it was their resting place.
I want a love so undefined that Webster just reference it instead of trying to define it.
I want a love ...

I want a …
I want a love...
I want a love so pure that virginity would take on a whole new meaning
I want a love so divine that is took second place next to God
I want a love that speaks for itself where even if I wasn't near you, you could still hear me
I want a love...

I want a love like this.
I want to love like this.

© Blu Jewel

Completely Blu

The past two years have been an amazing growth process for me and the past year has been even more amazing in terms of my life's experiences. The following poem is a culmination of my journey as best I could capture it when it was written. It's the first poem I've written solely in the past year and I'm sharing it with you. Enjoy

As the pieces of the puzzle assemble

And the links of my life meet

Finally forming a unified compilation of me

No longer fractured by torment, pain, or neglect

Seeing the scars both real and imagined

As battle wounds from a war waged

Rendering me the victor; not victim

Now fully open to accept and receive

The blessings set before me

To know and understand the difference

Between living and existing

Knowing when to hold on or let go

And possess the ability of losing myself within myself

Instead of to another for their gratification

While unfulfilling my own

Allowing myself room to grow;

Accepting that life is ever changing

And not always in a bad way

Tendering the ability to let my guard down

And not feel naked without reason

Believing that I truly am a queen

And my king will come in search of his missing rib

To know and trust in the possibility of love

And believe in the hand willing to catch me

Realizing fear is nothing but the blinding

Of feelings unused to being surfaced

And the blocking of love and life

That’s ready and willing to be embraced

Empowered by the willingness to simply be me

I teeter to the edge; contemplating the fall

Encouraged by a leap of faith

I learn to spread my wings

© Blu Jewel 2008

a blast from the past

I was sorting through some old files and came across this poem. Upon reading it, I immediately recalled why I wrote it and this being Sexual Assault Awareness Month; thought it appropriate to share it. It wrote it at a time in my life when I was trying to deal with everything that had happened to me. Looking back on it now, I'm impressed and amazed with myself for having overcome and for the woman I am today.

I am but a ghost that lives a human existence
I am a fleshed being with no substance
I am eyes with no face
I am all and yet nothing.

In this fragile life I live
I ease my way though
Without disturbing the peace
Suffering the pain
Of trials I am not guilty of.

Who is it that sentences me
To such cruel states of indignation
Those of you who allow yourselves
To be the victor of the day
And worse of all
Me for allowing it to take place.

To you I shall cast no stones
I shall carry no malice
For in your time of judgement
You have only yourself to blame.


Blu Jewel 3-23-93

Love!

Impromptu

Since I kind of closed the lounge, I haven't posted any poems other than the two collbos I did with Sojourner, but yesterday, something hit me and I'm sharing it with you now

Dormant thoughts suddenly arise
Trading darkened recesses for the light
At the suddenness of your presence
Unexpected synchronicity ensued
And inhibition relaxed as I yielded
To my sudden willingness to release
The gates of reluctance and resistance

Love Lost Sought

During my absence, the wonderfully talented Sojourner reached out and asked if I'd collaborated with him again and with the success of our first collaboration; Distant Love, I could not say no. Here it is...

Love Lost Sought
by Sojourner & BluJewel

Gone it seems are the days

When my call inspired your gasp

You were once so impressed

By the sparest thoughts of my mind

Now heavy laden pauses stifle

The gentle words that die on the cusp of forming

Each time they try to penetrate

The fortress that has become you

Electricity used to arc

At the slightest touch from my hand

Now the quickening of your heartbeat

Has settled into a stroll

Unlike a moth; the attraction has waned from the flame

Preserving what's left of my wings

To fly away to safer ground

Resting what remains of my still beating heart

Life has long since extinguished

The one we hoped build

The rising tide of differences

Has drowned love's crashing waves

In the wake of loves demise

Time waits to heal all wounds

Wondering how this love was everywhere

And yet became so elusive

But still I remember Everest highs

The laughter and joy unspeakable

And as I lament love lost

Still sit and think, "What if?"

Silent thoughts echo

And unite in a prayer

Resting on the precipice

Of sunrises filled with maybes

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Love!

A surprise treat

Well, it's been a while since I've posted a poem seeing as my other spot, The SaPhyre Lounge has been closed, but I was offered the opportunity to collaborare with a fantastic writer Sojourner G and could not turn it down. It was both an honor and a privilege to write with someone I admire for his own writing and spiritual messages. The italicized lines are the ones I wrote.

Here it is...

Distant LoveI rejoice as your sun
Breaks dawn over my earth each day
Your love crests my horizon
With the promise of unlimited possibilities

Rendezvous conceived in my mind
Anxiously awaiting their birth into reality
Seconds carry the weight of hours
As I yearn for the nearness of you

Giddy am I
At the prospect of experiencing your countenance
The anticipation of your symphonic voice
Playing a string laden concerto of your affection for me

My heartbeat I send on the whisper of a prayer
Given to the wind to make it reach your ears
Counting on my faith for strength
To make my wishes comes true

My mind searches the expanse of the universe
For divergent futures written before time
Big Bang genesis established this
Woven into the fabric of all that is and will be

My feelings for you like still water runs deep
And my love eclipses my sadness
Because distance dissipates what the heart feels
Dying to share living with you

My eternity resides with you
Seeking world acknowledgement of our mutual devotion
To be defined by your love is my greatest desire
Would that I had the courage to confess all this to you