Lyrically Speaking: My dedication to Anika "Nikki" Harris…R.I.P

Maxwell is probably my favourite artist and as I let him eargasmically soothe me today, the following came to me. Nikki, The Iniquitious One and her Indigo Trail of Thoughts leaves a void in the Blog Community. May we all learn something from her untimely passing.

She came into our lives with that Sumthin Sumthin that made us laugh, cry, and wish we were as creative and gifted as she. When made us all feel Welcome as we chilled at her Urban Hang Suite. The more we spent with you, and took the time to Get to Know Ya, we realized that Noone was firing up the keyboard quite like you. You soon became one of our BadHabits and you were that Gravity: Pushing to Pull as we waited Silently, Silently for your next post.

When you’d go off on someone or get fired up passionately about something, many would wonder if you’d be like that Til the Cops Come Knockin. And if you didn’t post, we’d know that Whenever, Wherever, Whatever, you’d come back to us and let the Phoenixrise.

I recall many a post and our private conversations where you spoke of Matrimony: Only you as you contemplated dating and ever being back in a loving and committed relationship. All you wanted to do was Drowndeep: Hula into his arms and where Lonely’s the Only Company would escape from your life and you reside in a place For Lover’s Only.

It was like This Woman’s Work was never done and you were always willing to HelpSomebody. I remember when that chick faked her own death in the Blog-sphere and you exposed her for the fraud she was and make a lot of people stop hurting.

Then one day, something Changed when you were hit with a Symptom Unknown. We all rallied around the Suitelady who had given so much of herself to us in so many ways. When you told us that the pain was not just a Temporary Nite of rounds with your condition and you couldn’t be with us Now/At the Party; you still managed to gather us in unity as I Am You: You Are Me & We Are You.

And on Sunday August 30th , we had to StopTheWorld and muddle through our FistfulofTears and share how much you Was/As My Girl. We all wish you are simply PlayingPossum.

So dear, sweet, and beautiful one; until the day our Reunion comes, spread your PrettyWings and know that we will always LoveYou and you’ll be a part of us EachHourEachSecondEachMinute of the day.

Love to live; live to love

A sad day!

For those of you who've been blogging for some time may know Nikki Harris aka Nikki Indigo or the Iniquitous One. She was a powerful, entertaining, and extremely honest writer. For the past few years, she was one of my favourite blogs to read and I was inspired by her in many ways. From her candor to her sensitivity, she left an indelible mark on the lives she touched.

It's with a heavy and saddened heart to say, R.I.P Nikki. My life has been blessed with your gifts and may heaven know it is so very blessed to have you in their midst. Her suffering is now over and her place in the eternal is secure.

Her passing flashed a neon light that life is fragile; it is precious; and it needs to be lived fully. We need to act with purpose and intent on a foundation of love. She was only 37 years old and too young for her passing, so from this I must live. I must take her memory and use it to celebrate this life; to love a little harder; to walk a little sturdier, a celebrate each day for we surely do not know when our last will be.

Prayers to the Harris family and may God bless and keep you all.

Love to live; Live to love

The Bucket List

God desires to take you into new places in your life. He wants to take you to deeper places in your walk with Him, and He wants to take you into higher places of blessing in your life. Are you ready to go to places that you’ve never been before? So many people today get stuck in a rut because they don’t want to get out of their comfort zone. They want to stay with what they know because it’s comfortable. But in order for you to reach your full potential, you have to be willing to step out into the unknown. You won’t ever walk on water until you step out of the boat! We all have areas we can rise higher in. Open your heart today and be ready to step out into the unknown. Trust that the Lord will guide and order your every step. Begin to expect that the unexpected is on the way. Be ready to step out into new places. As you approach your day with faith and expectancy, you will move forward in the abundant life He has for you!

These are very important words to remember and live by. I received this while preparing this post and it coincides in so many ways.

I saw The Bucket List last Thursday and I must say it was by far one of the best and most amazing movies I’ve seen in a long time. I will admit there were some things I didn’t like; however, they weren’t enough to take away from the movie.

For those who aren’t familiar, The Bucket List is a story about two men; one wealthy and one average man whom a paired up in the same hospital room to receive treatment for their respective cancers. Naturally, they had a hard time hitting it off at first, but in time they became friends and The Bucket List was formed when the average man’s treatment was no longer working and he was given only six months left to live. So, you’re asking, “what is The Bucket List?” The Bucket List is a list of things you want to do before you die. The average man initiated the list and the wealthy man added to it and was able to facilitate the activities that were costly. I won’t continue about the movie because I really want you to go out and see it for yourselves. I will; however, tell you why we all need to live in order to appreciate our deaths because it’s extremely important that we not take our lives for granted and live it to its fullest potential.

While we all need to work hard, save money, and do all the things that we’re told to do as adults; we still need to LIVE. We need to take chances; explore all our options, and stop being afraid of our weakness or fears. Life is not promised and can be taken away at any time; on any day. What sense does it make to work your entire life and never take a real vacation? Why have countless hours of sick leave; never take it and then be forced to exhaust it and more for medical treatments because you’ve worked yourself into sickness? How about the money spent on material things instead of more tangible things. There are so many things that we do that have no memorable value or benefit to our lives because we’re too caught up in other things to enjoy or appreciate our lives. Or we rush through those times/moments we’re supposed to be spending with our friends/families because our minds are elsewhere. I think we need to slow down, evaluate our lives, and start placing real value on the real things. It’s time to take a proactive role and stop being passengers in our own lives. There is no time like the present to live.

I implore each of you to not wait until you're sick or near death to create your own Bucket List; do it and begin living it now! It doesn’t matter if the things you list are big or small or how much money you have; it matters that you do them. It’s time to make the dash between your birth and death count for something. Leave an imprint on those around you so when your eulogy is delivered, it’s more than just words; it’s substance.

Love!

From Legal to Illegal

Last week there was a story in my area about a baby boy found in a trash bag of a dumspter at a housing complex. I gasped and was sickened by the disturbing story and the heinous act performed by the misguided and selfish woman. There was limited details, but I later learned that the discarded baby was that of an 18 year old girl who'd concealed her pregnancy, delivered it alone, and then tossed it before anyone could find out. To make a bad story worse, the girl was the sister of someone I knew; though remotely. Considering the entire family is one huge bowl of dysfunction, I could only continue to shake my head and cuss openly about her flagrant disregard for life. Wait, one! Let me add that the stank ass-triflin-no good-selfish-cruel-inhumane-lame excuse for a flesh went to the mall after she'd given birth and trashed her newborn son. I see you all staring at the screen saying to yourselves, "did she really just say that?" Yes, people, she went to the mall!!!!

I will now continue. I'm trying to wrap my head around this crime and come to terms with what I'd heard and had confirmed by an extremely reliable source. The father of the child had no idea chick was pregnant because she said she was getting an abortion of which is a LEGAL act, but instead she decides to not terminate. She goes on to conceal the pregnancy and then attempt to kill the child in an act which is currently ILLEGAL. Are you getting where I'm going with this?

How in God's name does a person do something so fucking ruthless? There are laws to PROTECT a mother who decides she doesn't want the child if she takes it to a safe place. So again, I question why a person would go from two perfectly legal acts to performing a heinous AND illegal one??? There are women torturing their bodies with all kinds of hormone therapies in order to conceive and here we have some wretched 18 year old who conceives and tosses the baby with the trash. What the hell has the world come to when we blantantly disregard life to this capacity?

Personally, I'd like to slap the shit out of her for what she did. She better be glad I'm not on that jury cause there'd be no way in hell she'd get anything but a guilty verdict and the promotion of the highest penalities for her crime. So far she's looking at 5-10 for child endangerment and other related charges.